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Saturday, March 04, 2006Y

current mucis : girl, destiny child

I was really surprsied that class took only15 minutes or less. End of coll fer the day. I took around 20 minutes going to coll and also 30 minutes back (coz i took federal highway home) and its just for ths 15 minutes class. Ridiculous.

I had a really bad day. Dont ask me why. i dont have any idea. currently facing menstrual pain so aching me. I wanted to shout like nobody business. I hate it when all the lucks come and go so unexpectedly. Like i've said there are certain period that i cant sleep well cant eat well and now even all these bad lucks come all in once. Kinda hard to handle nyah~~

Come to think of it, I am the youngster in my family and i am already 18. Time passes really fast like a blink on an eye. Recalling all the beautiful memories back in my former school I feel like all these happen just yesterday.

During the school time, things are planned by teachers all u have to do is follow. But after we come to college all the things and decision is made by ourselves. There comes the chaos and confusion. I was still wondering why am i in taylors foundation when my interest is not at all here. I tried to carved fer the interest but nothing was resulted. Kinda hard fer me to turn back now and all i have to do is move on futher for interest and leading myself to another exit. I have to give up on what i really wish to do. Naive me listening to friends own opinion where i actually believe in my own dreams. Desperately, i desired and insist entering my current coll is to meet up with friends.. i am not sure about it but i really starting to feel rregret. I do actions before thinking about the consequences. Serve me right.

Thinking on the brighter side, its not totally worthless studying business foundation. I believe this will evenetually help me in the futher. Now all i can is to focus focus and focus. Never gonna disappoint mommy and daddy. I cant be the best but i will give my all to make u proud. My siblings are scientist catogories working with their left brain and fer me that should be catagorised in the "GOD believer" i am not in the reality. Always in my imagination where my right brain work till my left brain slept out.

Seconds by seconds, minutes by minutes, hours and days i am eventually growing. I am getting older by every second. How i wish i can stop the time or perhap rewind the time back to my childhood so i can re-do all my mistakes. never feel regret..take it as a lesson thats something that i told myself yet its really hard to apply.

Maybe i am just thinking tooooo much.. hopeless thoughts. strain on my brain =p

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